Pat Lacey – dad of the extraordinary Will Lacey recently posted about a presentation of PTSD in parents of cancer kids. I remember being in the middle of treatment with Nathan and attending the conference in 2004 ( I think?) and hearing a similar presentation.
Today I had a moment like that and it came out of the blue. Lauren and I walked to the supermarket. When we entered the door a woman came in as well with a IV still placed on her arm and some of that flexible bandage stuff wrapped around her arm (I can’t believe I have forgotten what that is called! or at least what they called it at Sloan Kettering). I only caught her out of the corner of my eye and I had a physical reaction where my stomach dropped and I caught my breath for a minute and I felt a “zing” in my brain. Then, I realized what had made that happen. It was really odd and out-of-body-ish. I surely have seen such things in the last few years but this one really caught me off guard. Strange the way the mind works. I am sure I have suppressed a hell of a lot of emotions and memories. Four and a half years of hellacious medical procedures witnessed and a painful death are sure to do that to someone. I hope they stay out of my consciousness as much as possible.
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