I have a few posts brewing but this a prelude to one and is short and sweet. I think that the people who love me but have not lost a child themselves (which is almost everyone) are really waiting and hoping for me to “snap out of it”. They know someone else who has lost a child or they read someone else’s blog or they simply are just concerned for my and my families’ well-being and so when I post a grief entry on here they get worried about me or they just start wishing for me to get to the “next place” or somehow progress to a different place.
I know you are all well-meaning, but it just is defeating to know that I am being judged for where I am with my grief. One who loves me very much recently compared my grief with someone else’s and I know that person meant well but it hurt, because I am where I am and I feel what I feel and I am on my own time frame.
I will post soon about a letter I got and for some reason got buried on my desk until a few days ago. A letter acknowledging my grief and admitting some of these feelings about waiting and hoping for me to “snap out of it” and then having a revelation about where I am. Jude – if you are reading this, this is yours and I will be privately emailing you and then hopefully sharing more of what you said if you agree.