I know I have readers who are involved with church and bible study and I have a question for you.
How do you evaluate whether a bible study is a productive/positive experience?
I am really struggling with enjoying or even at times tolerating bible study currently. The topic is fine. It is a manuscript style study of Mark. It relies heavily on small group discussion, however. I feel like I am not in the right place right now or something to be able to take it in and participate. I have had very little bible study experience and I don’t feel like I have very much to contribute. Also, I find that I have been having a harder time with grief lately, which just makes me tend to clam up in general. It doesn’t help that some of the group knows about Nathan and some does not and I feel like it is this big thing that effects how I feel about things but it is not something I can throw out there. We do very little personal sharing and so somehow it seems hard to study the bible without applying it to your personal life but that seems to be what we do. We dissect the text but it doesn’t seem like we apply it much to our lives.
I am really considering dropping it. In fact the only reasons I am reluctant are that 1) there is someone in my group I really want to get to know better and 2) Lauren gets to spend time with one of her best friends while I am there.
This all seems to be about ME and that is not the point of bible study, I know. If I stop this one I will look for something else, somewhere else. Someone please tell me if I am being selfish and childish?