Those of you who know me would probably say that I am very even tempered and fairly calm. I don’t get excited about things and I keep a cool head about things others might get flustered about.
So – you will know that things are not good when I tell you that I broke my computer tonight.
My computer is old and crappy. It was barely working. I would have had a new one if I was in Colorado but have been waiting until I got home. Tonight, it started giving me shit as I was trying to write an email to Nathan’s doctor asking him to let Nathan out of the hospital even though it is against all the policies and procedures they have.
So – I gave it a good thump with my fist.
It still didn’t behave itself – it froze a little and then was not letting me do what I wanted.
I pounded on it a little more with my fist and now it is toast.
I truly had to restrain myself from putting it on the floor and jumping on it. The thought of wrecking the computer makes me smile and feel giddy. That computer has been such a DOG and pissed me off so many times and I am so pissed off about so many other things right now that I am itching to pound the thing. If it didn’t have its hard drive in it (which I am hoping to later recover some files from) I would totally beat it up and enjoy every minute of it.
Oh – and there is also the problem of the six year old in the hospital bed next to me watching me pound it and me setting a very bad example for him.
So – now what do you think of me?
I keep telling people – one of these days I am going to crack under the strain of it all. It’s not happening yet but every day it seems more feasible.
edited to say that I am posting this from Luke’s computer – which is having a sticky “E key” lately but is otherwise an obedient computer and I promise I will not abuse it